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| Hello again, my dusty friend. If I had a laptop of my own I would use you more often. But, I'd rather have a dog. I can't remember where we got Princess, the Jack Russel we got about four years ago. She is a wonderful dog. We all love her very much.. and she didn't cost $1400 with a $200 discount! So I am looking up how to get someplace to see if I remember where we were going to see if I remember where it was. Blurb.
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| Finally you come in handy.. you craphole of a place to work. Internet is good no matter where you have to go to get it. Right now I am sitting here with Kurt waiting for him to get off work.. so we can leave and do something fun... like watch some TV or a movie. Or something. Tomorrow is my fathers birthday. My brother, Kurt and I are gonna go put flowers on his grave.. and it will be good because I don't think that Josh has been there in a while. He has been doing really well, but is still troubled. I wish that I could understand what he is going through. It must be hard being his age without our dad. I know that he will come around to see that some of the choices he is making aren't the best; however, I am worried that he will do something stupid and ruin the rest of his life. I wish that there was a way to surround him with a more positive crowd. I'm not saying that all of the kids up in South Mt are horriable; just that some of them are questionable, at best. Anyways.. Kurt is ready to go home. Mitch is here so the girls downstairs will be okay, and so will everyone else. Kurt is telling the story about how he was the stripper at Breanna's aunt's 50th birthday party. It's funny. Really funny. Goodnight! | | |
| So, it finally happened. I broke it off with Josh and I moved out. It's a bitter sweet success. On one hand I am glad to be rid of something that has caused me great pain.. and on the other I miss him. I am so used to the same thing, day after day. It almost feels like my body almost expects things to happen at certain times during the day, and when it doesn't happen... it hurts. Like, withdraw. I know things between Josh and I weren't always the best... we fought and nitpicked eachother to death. But, this was needed. Josh and I both have things that we need to work on. He needs to get a job... and I need to get my damn GED. He has a lot of growing to do.. things that I can't help him with. And I need to grow as an independent woman.
I am staying with my mom and her boyfriend while I get on my feet again. It's nice to be around family.. no matter how frustrating it gets. My little brother is the best in the world. All he wants to do is chill with me. Mom is so happy to have me back. She doesn't know what to do. And Princess is a doll as always. Kurt is also a nice person to be around. Things are ten times better when he is around. And he is so helpful. He's a little nerd tho. He let me hang out his moon roof... which was awesome. It was just, crazy... windy... and chilly... but, new. There are a lot of new feelings, and new things. New chances to make friends, new conversations to be had. It feels like another life. It's amazing sometimes.. but, killer other times. All I can do is pray for strength, look to the future see that it is bright, and it's not scary. I can do this. there will be hard times, but, I will make it. This is nothing compared to somethings that I've been through. Altho, he was a huge part of my life... I feel like I've made the right choice. And it's over.
Goodnight love.
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| Hello. I am very pleased to present... a post. To you.
You, you goofball you.
You are so kind
You are all mine.
You make me smile.. for a really long while.
You make me glad, when I am sad.
No baked potato or baked patato
Could make me as happy as your smile
So please stick around, I won't make you frown.
I love you so... I hope you know.
You will see, you're made for meeeeeeeeee.....
:) :) :) :) :) :) :)
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| All of this emotion is welling up inside of me. I can feel it growing, and becoming stronger. It almost takes my breath away sometimes. It's a happy feeling. I always know it's there. But the only time it's at peace, is when I'm with this someone. He's become so much to me. When I'm away from him, even just seeing his name makes me feel better. I trace the air with my fingers in the shape of his face. Closing my eyes I picture him... strong, supportive, dorky. But, every part of him makes me smile. He asks "Why am I so lucky?" I say, we're both lucky. Now we both have someone that makes us put our foots in our mouths, and to miss door handles over. Someone to strip us down, to what we really look like. Someone to swing over our shoulder, or be swung over a shoulder. That someone that fits... just right. He's my Death Star. <3
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